Hollilililililililililililili!

I've had my livejournal for four years now. It's weird being able to read entries from the past and take note of certain things. Weird, convenient, and just overall disturbing.

For example, someone broke my heart last November. I promised myself that I would never be that susceptible to emotional damage ever again.... And yet if they were to pick up the phone right now, tell me they broke up with their horrid girlfriend, and inform me that they would like for me to come and live with them in a shack in Zimbabwe- I'd consider it. If I hadn't recorded this situation as it unfolded, it would not baffle me so. I wouldn't be aware of it.

There are people that were using me over the summer. I let them use me, abuse me, and ring me out to dry. Did I realize this while it was happening? No. I wasn't thinking straight. Looking back on it,it's good to see how crazy I was being and that I can avoid this happening in the future by doing x, y, and z.

Reflection is good for the soul. It allows for quicker advancement of self.

Look at the first post you ever wrote on Vox. What important developments or changes have occurred in your life since then?
Submitted by Alexandra.

Wow. What developments or changes have occured in my life since September 2006? In a nutshell: I've become obsessed with myself.. in that annoying way I vowed I never would take on. I'm in college. I've learned a few...... tricks. Still the same person, though.

Vox is such a beautiful website.. I wish it was more actively used.

I'm trying to take charge of my life .. it's the hardest thing I've ever tried to do, really. It's disgusting how passive I am. Everything I have now that's good or everything that is even mildly enjoyable in my life is something that just.. happened. by chance. or by someone else's doing. It's not something that I actively pursued because, for some reason, I am absolutely clueless as to what it is I want. Really & truly. In addition to being clueless about my heart's desires, I am terrified of rejection and/or not getting what it is I pursue. So I just sort of.. don't really pursue. Pathetic & I need to stop it.

Just felt like sharing, really. Gone fer now.

http://www.myspace.com/spoilerific

SPOILERS FOR I LOVE NEW YORK 2 FINALE.. soooooooooooo hottttttttttt. tailormadeforthefreakinWIN!

i don't know how to put youtube videos.. so here's linkies:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PT9jrPbZ5ug -

this is a cover... still amazing. i love her.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kN_5-MXE0AQ -

my favorite song. and i love her hair.

http://www.vh1.com/video/play.jhtml?id=1576239&vid=194927

 http://www.vh1.com/video/play.jhtml?id=1576239&vid=194929

lmao!!!! "it"........ rotflmao. i wish he would've stayed around longer.

What's your favorite thing to drink when it's cold outside?

My favorite thing to drink in general now is water. When it's hot, which is about 99% of the time, I drink my water with ice. When it's "cold," I drink it room temperature. Interesting, yeah? I know. Your life is complete now that you know this vital information. You will die.. happy.

It's bad when you want something that you can't get. It's worse when you don't know what exactly it is you want - but you want it BAD.

 

What does your name mean and why did your parents choose it for you? 

 

The name Holly has several random behind definitions. One defines holly as a plant with red berries associated with Christmastime. Holly also apparently = everlasting. ... or something. Everlasting what? I'm not quite sure.

 

My Dad chose my name because my mother already used up all her good girl names. My Dad named me after a girl he reeeeeeeeeally admired in high-school.. uh huh.

 

:)

Cool Question ~~ What are the 10 foods you must have in your refrigerator and/or your kitchen cabinet? 
Submitted by Carol.  

 

My Response ~~

1.) cheetos puffs

2.) baby carrots

3.) vanilla ice cream

4.) skittles

5.) EGGS!

6.) papaya

7.) canteloupe

8.) some sort of crackers

9.) ham

10.) cheeeese